Readings

Today I  picked the Horse card.  The horse is all about personal power.  It vibrates to the carnelian stone. I was pondering on what personal power actually meant to me. The power to say no. My husband taught me a really great "yukti" (Hindi word for method/action)which I bought into my life some years ago and it really works! I used to be one to say "yes" to everyone.  The trouble was, once I'd thought about it and realised I didn't want to do it, I would make up some excuse not to do it. It never felt good doing that  but I didn't know any other way.  I was born into a "yes" family (God help me!) so it was all I knew. Looking back, from the other persons perspective I must've come across as a very unreliable person. From my side I always seemed to be "busy" helping other people have great lives whilst mine was perpetually "in the shit ". From a work perspective I was so good at helping other people look good(s...

Today I pulled the elephant card.  It's about self worth.  Yesterday my friend who's a naturopath used me as a test for a "method" of getting to the source of a problem.  It was done with questions and a pendulum.   She asked me for 3 issues I had.  The pendulum chose my weight issue.  She went through many questions using the pendulum to both choose questions and answers with input from me occasionally.   It was determined my problem started around 10 years of age.  "Oh joy" I thought to myself. .. that would be the age I couldn't remember a thing about!  She ascertained some issues but determined that they weren't actually mine.  They were issues of a friend of mine and I had taken them on.  The original source that came up was jealousy and envy.  I thought of all the problems I had, they would've been the last two things I would have picked for myself. .. however remember these were not my issues...I just took them...

I learnt something about life yesterday which I don't want to forget. It's about intent and the story goes like this... A woman in this life complains that every woman she meets thinks she's a loose woman, some even call her a slut others make it obvious she is to keep away from their husband's or say cutting things to or about her.  She's actually done nothing in this life to deserve that sort of treatment.  We'll call her Sally. Another woman in this life is respected and treated like an angel wherever she goes.  Again she's done nothing in particular in this life to deserve that sort of treatment. We'll call her Judy. They both went to a past life healer.  Each one found out that they had been a prostitute in their previous life. Sally did it to get what she could out of the men she was with.  She manipulated men for gifts,  more money... whatever she could get she went for it with no regard for how the men felt.  Judy on the other hand became...

I'm still learning about the ego and how to identify it.  If my thoughts are judgemental or critical I know it's ego.  That's still working for me.   As I observe my thoughts, I'm continually amazed at how many thoughts are ego based and just not me! I am also touching on intuition today and how to recognise that.  It seems intuition and instinct quite often get confused as the same thing.  I remember when I was with my friend Sue, the trance channeller one day and her channelled spirit told me intuition is like a feeling of coming homeness.  I'm reading Akemi G's book today which is giving me some guidance on how to develop my intuition.  She says that a critical skill in developing intuition is forming clear, direct and answerable questions.  In order to develop the skill to consciously tune into intuition,  however, we need to ask questions with intention.   The specificity of the answer can only be as good as the q...

Just reading the book Why We Are Born by Akemi and it's talking about love.  The biggest thing I got out of this is that if I am  judgemntal towards myself then I am judgemental towards others whether I voice it or not.  I am going to sit with this today.  Because I know I am judgemental towards myself.  My card today is the butterfly and about transformation.   It's about learning to share my knowledge with others.  I've started doing that on a psychic site.  I'm accepting I am an empath.  I feel others pain.  That's for the most part why I can't get angry at people because I can see things from their side. I do have to balance that with teaching people that I deserve respect too.  So I have respect for myself then others will naturally respect me.

Today I started to read a book called Why We Are Born by Akemi G.  I ordered this through Amazon and had been waiting a few weeks for it.  There is a really good section on the EGO and how it works.  I think the biggest thing I got out of this is that if it judges or criticises it's the EGO.  That is probably one of THE most helpful bits of information I have received to help me with my journey to enlightenment.  And when I say journey to I mean my journey within.  It's my understanding we are all enlightened it's just covered over by EGO.  So I don't have to BECOME anything or improve myself I just need to slow down and drop my EGO and see what is underneath.  Note:  This next paragraph may be upsetting to you as it was me. I was given some awful information today about a pedophile ring .... people in high places breeding children kids escaped she's now a grown woman and went on the Dr Phil show.  I couldn't get past the fact that ...