My Purpose and my Journey to Find It No. 11

Today I  picked the Horse card.  The horse is all about personal power.  It vibrates to the carnelian stone.

I was pondering on what personal power actually meant to me.

The power to say no.

My husband taught me a really great "yukti" (Hindi word for method/action)which I bought into my life some years ago and it really works!

I used to be one to say "yes" to everyone.  The trouble was, once I'd thought about it and realised I didn't want to do it, I would make up some excuse not to do it.

It never felt good doing that  but I didn't know any other way.  I was born into a "yes" family (God help me!) so it was all I knew.

Looking back, from the other persons perspective I must've come across as a very unreliable person.

From my side I always seemed to be "busy" helping other people have great lives whilst mine was perpetually "in the shit ".

From a work perspective I was so good at helping other people look good(saying yes all the time ), I  never got promoted.  I was too valuable being a gopher!  

I felt I got my personal power back when I learnt to say "can I get back to you on that?  Or "I'll check my diary and get back to you".  The best part of this "yukti" is that you don't actually have to get back to them because they've moved on and found another "sucker"!

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